knnbccb

It's all too messed up . I honestly don't know how I feel about anything anymore . It's hard to put into simple words or explanations . I'm angry. Upset . Disappointed .

You mean something to me , I meant nothing to you , what is it now , I can't say .

Fast forward through a few months or random companions , heartfelt talks , late night phone calls with a certain girl . I had that feeling again . My heart skipped a beat whenever your name would show up on the call display ; we'd talk ( hours & hours ) until you've got really restless and it's past our scheduled sleeping time , but we never cared . I never felt awkward with you , that was the part that I liked best . We still didn't know each other very well , but we went for it anyway . Sometimes I can't pick out the good from the bad . They are same thing most of the times . Or the good will lead to the bad , as it did just recently . I felt ridiculous . I can't help but feel like we're both getting the short end of the stick ; I'm happy you came all the way down to find me for dinner , trying your best to make me happy . Although I didn't slept for the past 1 -2 day , I felt energized , as if we could just run around places all day . I'm weird , paranoid , fucked .

My heart , it don't beat the way it used to , and my eyes don't recognize you no more . And of course , being the kind of person I am , I won't walk away . I can't .

I love today, I really do .

I love the way you hold me. My head my hands my heart .