posted on Wednesday, February 2, 2011 at 11:47 PM
After the past few weeks of hard work and unlimited fun, I've learned some hard things about myself. I've learned that I have things to work on and areas in my life where I need to grow. I have fear in my life. I've let fear push me around more often than I'd like to admit. When I'm scared I hide, I lie, I get busy, I keep secrets, I procrastinate. I've learned that it just takes a moment to make a mess, and messes scare me. Messes scare me because they challenge love. They challenge other people's love for me, challenge my love for myself.
posted on at 1:42 AM
I think to myself as she struggles to tell me what's been going on, what's on her mind. And in a painful yet relieving sigh I tell her it's OK. I guess things aren't always what they seem... It's like crayons, how you always look at the wraper on the crayon to see what color it is, but when you use it on the paper it's never the same color; it's always slightly different. Drastically. It's just a few hours you left in contact with me, and I felt I lost a big part of me. Maybe you just mean too much to me. Day 1 out of 5. ' You will be back soon' That's what I'm gonna repeat to myself every minute I think of you.