It's been so long since I blogged, I almost forgot how to do it. Except not really, I've just been so lazy and occupied. I couldn't find the time to brag about how much I love living here. HAHA no, really now. I should be serious. The last ten or so days have been pretty dope, being sober as fuck for 2 nights in a row @ Andrew's chalet, & hanging out with love most of the time, fighting & making up. Just that wonderful.

Sometimes I hate how I can put myself in everyone's shoes & be empathetic with all of them. Because they never say thanks, they never appreciate, and when you really need a favor or just someone to be there for you like how you did for them, they won't be there, they will be busy or just can't be bothered, they never understand. But I have to understand, and I have to help you and I just have, have, have..... It's alright. I might just say no one day.

Oh ya TAKECARE ANDREW! We will be there to fetch you in 5 months time.

I woke up screaming, into the darkness. I searched for a light but I can find none, I stand up and immediately I fell as though I am drowning into the darkness that seem to strangle me, I screamed into the darkness I see someone they are looking directly at me, I called out for your name, yes you YSY but you turned and walk away, I try to struggle through the darkness to you, I called out to you again, but they keep walking away until I can't see you anymore. I stopped struggling and let the darkness take me then I am gone no one to helped me. I shut my eyes and let the last thought of your, of us whatever I could come into focus & everything just slowly vanish,

I don't wanna be in this situation ever again, I'm afraid.