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A friend of mine talks about living in the now ( Present ) , leaving the past behind . Well that's great in theory and it does make sense , there's no such thing as time machine , even if there is , you probably going through everything which you had before. But the past has a strong grip on us . We relish our past glory and cry over our past mistakes , I've did , tons of them. It is said that you can learn from the past . You have to stop and think about the past in order to learn from it. I know people who live in the past ; some in the distant past . Some people justify their " soul " on things from the past . It doesn't matter who you were , who you are today is what matters. I try not to dwell on the past . However , now and then the past creeps into my head , kicks me in the gut and laugh. The past has popped into my brain and made frown big smile big. I've kinda regret deleting off my old blog from 2006-2008 mid . ASUFVKGBSRKHJBFSUKF :( I think the PAST deserves a friendly handshake and a pat on the back. Now off you go , I've got a new friend called TODAY I want to spent time with .

Hello . Is there anybody out there? I have been so busy lately that I've deprived myself the joy of blogging. But I do enjoy the time hanging out with the guys. All the movies , games , supper etc was fun as hell. Over the last few weeks many greats blogs have entered my head , fumble around a while , and slipped away , leaving very little behind. It seems life one thought enters my head and kicks another one out. I need to record everything inside my phone when I get some point instead of relying on my fuzzy mind. Oh well I tend to get really distracted when I'm having fun. it's 7:30 am right now. & I've just got back from breakfast with Mum & Dad. Shall start studying & packing my room a lil . Be nice & leave me a suggestion , or a question on my formspring alright . KTHXBYE.

I have written posts before about my efforts to understand love . That love can be beautifully cruel . I have gained a new appreciation for the different types of love . Young , or new , love as opposed to commited love. Apparently a person can love someone so much , they hate what the other person does . A person can actually love someone so much that they tell them to walk away . I believe love can change who you are. Love can change your very mind , your environment , your soul. I think a person can change so much that you don't even know yourself. Is a total weird experience to come out of a walking coma and realize you don't know who you are , in reality you've been hiding . Sometimes we just get to know the reflection in the mirror , the voice we hear coming out of our mouth , the person everyone else talks bout . Is that really me? It's hard to admit who we really are. But I think it's important . If you don;t know who you really are , how can you become the person you want to be?

This too shall pass.

Friday/Saturday : Bo science class , Movie marathon , Saw V , The Uninvited & Don't mess with the Zohan . Mahjong , Supper , Larry the bird , Fifa 06 . Egyptian Restaurant , Shisha , No taste , Circle line , Supper , Monopoly deal , Midnight pool .

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It's odd , after browsing through the whole drawer of Presents , anniversary gifts I received . I feel like I have a lot of crap rattling around in my head , yet I'm struggling to put it in here. I guess maybe the problem is that I have several things in my life right now that aren't very clear or just simply hard for me to face. All I can do is deal with the issues in my life one at a time. That's you. You that who I always do everything for. Now you took everything away from me .

I'm all to blame .

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Oh I've got a new haircut , and a new dye for my hair.

BOTH is totally fml material. GRRRRRRRR.

Okay bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye.

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Just a quick post while I take a few moments to catch my breath . It has been a very busy weekend with many things going on. I feel so much like a child getting to hang out with my cousins and such yesterday . Yesterday was just pretty awesome but super tiringgggggggg.

Okay bye Imma meet YH for lunch . byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Post again tonighttttttttt.

Shopping @ town with mum & sis yesterday. woohooooooooooooooooo

Movie stay over @ Shun's place. DAWN OF THE DEAD. The storyline was pretty badass but the ending suck big time . It's like you watch 2hours of humans trying to save themselves from fucked up flesh eating cannibals and they still die in the end. But other than the story line , the zombies and location they use was pretty awesome , not like the typical zombie movie you now see when it always happen during the night . Cos I do like to watch some daylight kicking action. Today is like a NOTING TO WRITE ON THIS SHITTY BLOG day.

Bye I'm gonna dye my hair.

Dinner , pool , Resident evil Afterlife 3D , cake , Jayden's place, Birthday surprise , chit-chat . Home .

I've bumped into someone special yesterday , it was merely a hi , a wave of a hand . It keeps me wondering .

I've been thinking lately how one slip of the heart can cause ripples in your life that never end . We've all done something without a second thought of the consequences. In a bright flash of life we let our heart take the wheel of our life . Unfortunately our heart can't be trusted . After all it can be reckless and emotional on the same beat .

They say time heals all wounds . The time has to be spent filling the heart with good things and pushing out the bad . Then the ripples of tears will disappear into a life of smiles.

Life seems pretty much okay recently , decided to blog almost everyday if I've got the time .

Just came back grocery shopping with my sister though , IKEA & GIANTTTTTTTTTT.

Meatballs is totally orgasm .

The only problem is the past , I don't usually have this feeling of suckyness (LOL I JUST MAKE THAT WORD UP) I don't usually go out with my family members but recently I do , alot . Jogging & such . Being with my family is totally awesome . But I realize that whenever I'm with my family members , I had this particular special someone at her own home , who do care . But now is totally different, I don't know what I'm actually typing but it's just somehow somewhat feeling , those feeling when you always gets when you have that someone . aw man wtf am I typing. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
OKAY long story short : It's just something special. Which I had it once , not anymore.

I guess I'm gonna cut my hair soon , it's getting very thick and ridiculous .

Supper prata timeeeeeeee. BYE

Long post later on. Gonna go Ikea nowwwwwwwwwww . Seeya

Snowy is sickkkkkkk.

I've happen to drop by this website when this guy wrote this .

" Feelings changed , memories won't "

Annoys my brain the whole fucking day.

When we fall and hurt ourself , the wound can be very painful . They say , " time heals all wounds " . As time passes , the pain fades into a tiny ant-like speck in the back of our mind , but the wound is still there. Can we ever totally heal the wound? A wound can be nearly " healed" , only to have an event , a song or even a smell which could tear the wound open again. The scars on our hearts and souls are reminders that we are humans. A heart that hurts is a heart that works.

I have pondered the idea that people become the person that other's see and hear . A friend of mine put a little twist on it. She suggests that people make their opinion of someone based on that person's behavior & looks , which is a reflection of who they are. If that's that case , then we are driving people to their opinion or who we are , aren't we? But are we affected by other's opinion and how they look at us? Do we try harder to become more or less the person other think we are? I always like to be the one I'm comfortable with , so do hanging out with friends ; isn't it awful to know that the person you hang with isn't the real person that he/she really is? They are just trying to suck it up to you? But there's always reasons why everyone has a mask sometimes.

Never judge a book by it's cover.

Multiples of missed call ; a bunch of " where are you!? are you coming back to school? " sms .

Makes me felt that I'm running away from the truth. Oh I am .

Honestly ; I'm guilty . I've been living most of my life being honest with others , but I might have been less honest with myself , but never with others. After a few days of pondering for a few days. I realize that it's no place for me. The truth is SOOOOO SO SO SO much easier. When I promise myself something , I intend to keep my promise to everyone . I can't understand myself without being honest with myself. The more you get into this kind of shit you realize everything isn't that nice as it seems ;You have your rights to believe who you want to .

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Welcome to reality bitches.